I've been in love with the same guy for almost a year now. No... we're not a couple. He used to court me, but cheated. Now, we're good friends, but I still want him more than that.

We decided to meet up at around 6. He turned up @ 7. What's up with that?

Now, I'm officially hating and at the same time, loving this guy.

me = stupid.

It's quite unusual for me to turn to a blog when I'm really in need of a friend. I'm in a sticky situation right now, and it's not pretty.

Sometimes, the only word I could think of to further describe my feelings is "vanish". I feel like the only way to escape these problems is to just simply vanish.

Before you judge me, here are some pointers about me:

▪ I'm not used to handling situations on my own which is probably why I'm so troubled when there's no one I could turn to but a blog.

▪ I'm not a troublemaker or anything. And no, I'm not a goth chick or something. I'm just a shadow... wanting to vanish.

▪ I know for a fact that one must and can not escape problems/life situations as such.

So for the next few days, here's where I'll be opening up to.